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I let the dog out yesterday and he got out of the gate, so I’m feeling like I’m not ready to be responsible for another human being since I LOST THE DOG. I drove around looking for him, crying like a baby. And then when I found him, OH! I cried some more. I was late getting to work, so I was behind all day. When my manager asked me if I was going to get lunch out, I bit her head off, because “I didn’t have time to grab anything, because I LOST THE DOG”. So I hid in the bathroom and cried. Aaron was supposed to cook dinner last night as a trade off for the delicious nachos I made on Monday, but I felt so bad about LOSING HIS DOG, that I figured I should cook again. I was somber and teary all night. I watched a re-run of Jon & Kate Plus 8, and when little Leah cried about getting her feelings hurt, not only did I relate to her, I cried also. I stayed up with the dog, even after Aaron had gone to bed, because I didn’t want him to think I didn’t love him anymore. Then he bit my sweatshirt. I wanted to throw him across the room, but didn’t, because it had been a very trying day for both of us. I cried. He ate dog cookies. I went to bed and Aaron rolled away from me. I cried. I felt unloved, unwanted. I couldn’t possibly have bad breathe already, I’d just laid down! When I woke up this morning, the sun was not shining in my bedroom window, and the birds were not singing. On quite the contrary, my uterus was screaming in pain. Ah, the start of another cycle! This is becoming all too familiar. No baby this month. Guess we’ll try again. Maybe. If I can bring myself to stop crying. Comments (8)
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Awww! Oh Natalie, what a day that was!  I'm sorry you were so upset. Today will be better. {{hugs}} Don't doubt yourself. Dogs are not children. They are a WHOLE different league. LOL The good thing is...the dog came back - no harm done  Have a MUCH better day today! (Just realize we ALL have those crap days; you aren't alone. If it makes you feel any better, bleach cleaner leaked all over the back of my van yesterday - bleached out the carpet and now has to be replaced. I could've cried too - but then realized, it's still a van - not the end of the world.) |
SuzieQ
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HUGS Natalie, I am so sorry you had such a bad day and then Aunt Flow on top of that. She always has the best timing. Take care of yourself and I hope the rest of your week goes better (((HUGS))) Susan @someone elses eggs |
Rhonda
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http://mimistoes.blogspot.com Oh Natalie, I felt so bad for you reading this. Today is a new day and hopefully better days ahead for you, the dog and hubby, oh, and of course, fertility. Thinking of you and praying that God will bless you when least expected. Hang in there! Love ya.... |
Brittany Nicole
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There's nothing to do but smile & nod... I'm right there with you, you are not alone. Remember, your husband is there too. Don't forget to share your "blog" entry with him on a daily basis. it will hopefully make you more intimate. --At least, it has helped Mason, my husband & I grow closer through this depressing time for us. |
Mona
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... I thought I only had days like that. I really know how you feel. I've been crying for months now, but it's a new day. I'll be saying a prayer for you because I know what that feels like. |
Diana
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Praying for you I'm new to your blog. Thank you for sharing. Just wanted you to know that I'm praying for you and your husband. I wish you the best on your journey. My situation is different, but I share your longing to be a mother. Hang in there! |
AP
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I feel you Yes. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Thank you for sharing. Let's keep trying to endure the journey of conception. Keep your head up. |
Angela
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Dog Days :) I know where you're coming from. It seems like the days go to crap when you are already PMS-y. Glad it's done, and hopefully things are better. And don't worry, babies are a bit easier than dogs-babies eventually can use their words. Angela |
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