My IVF Story: Day 12 “I’m in Trouble” |
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Current Drugs taken: Birth Control Pills Mood: Feeling awesome & bloated I’m in trouble but in a very, very good way. I am one of those slightly naïve and positive people who actually believe that IVF will work for me on the first try. I’m convinced that “this time next month” I will be pregnant and I imagine the joy of telling my parents the good news. “Guess what mom and dad? You are going to be test tube grandparents!” But right now I’m in trouble because I’m having positive thoughts and feeling. In the infertile world, we all know that positive thinking usually leads to disappointment. We always try to shield ourselves from this pain and disappointment but it never seems to work. So today, I’m feeling hopeful and positive, hoping that I’m not disappointed yet again. So I’ve been taking my birth control pill now for about a week and almost forgetting to take it almost daily. It’s like I’m back in high school and forgetting to take the pill (not that I ever took the pill in high school, mom and dad). It’s amazing that I could forget considering that infertility is a daily (almost hourly) obsession. 8:15 p.m. Take the pill. When 8:45 p.m. arrives, I know I’m forgetting something. What is it? Oh darn. I take my birth control pill late. I just shake my head and blame my husband for not reminding me. In a few days, I will start my first set of fertility injections. I have been lucky during this process as I never had to take injections before. A nurse has trained me how to inject myself at least twice and I seem to have forgotten again. Maybe I have baby brain already? Gulp! Here I go….. Comments (4)
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... Naomi, I am glad to read things are progressing well for you and that you will officially join us IVFers in the next couple of days. Enjoy the high of these days.. I remember feeling so happy the day I got my first injection! I know what you mean about 'being in trouble' for being happy and positive... but I think it's something us 'infertiles' (to you use your term!) have in our genes! Remember the beauty of a cycle is that it's filled with endless possibilitie. Take it one day at the time sweetie, enjoy the highs and I hope for you the lows are few and not relevant in the grand scheme of things... most importantly don't forget to breath in and out!! P.S. About the injections... day 1 is scary, day 2 is easier, day 3 you will be a pro!!! Hang in there sweetie we are all rooting for you! |
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Sending along my best wishes and support (and sharing my not-yet-successful story) Best of luck. Someone has to be successful on the first try! Hope it's you. Personally, (stop reading if you don't want to "catch" my negative/BFN vibes; scroll down if you are brave enough!) I've tried IVF (fresh and FET) I think 7 times. I actually don't want to get an exact count. My latest BFN was just yesterday. I was devistated when it didn't work the first time, then was surprised to learn that there is such a thing as "chemical pregnancies" after my first BFP turned out to be a false alarm. Then, I gradually got used to the BFP chemical tease. Then, last year I actually got PG and made it through the 6 week ultrasound to see a HB and then no more HB at 8 weeks. That was most devistating. One year, almost to the day, later and still no PG. This last time I really thought it would work because we added Lovenox to my protocol, but sadly, it was not to be. I do have 4 frosties, so the new year is bound to bring me a snowflake baby! Again, best to you!!!!!! |
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