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This uncalled timeout must come to an end. With the holidays, birthdays, auto repairs, and everything else going on in our lives, the Hubs and I haven’t really talked much about our journey to parenthood. It’s not like we talked about it all the time, but we really haven’t said anything about it over the past few weeks. But now we’re coming up on that time of the month where we should really be trying. So why am I wondering if we’re still trying? A couple posts back I mentioned how we hadn’t really been trying too hard the past two months. I still watch out for the signs of the big O, and I take note of the number of days in my cycle. I think we are kind of both in the mindset of why try when it probably won’t work. It’s not the most positive outlook, but no one has ever accused my Hubs of being the glass is half full kind of guy. He normally goes in to a situation not really looking forward to it, but then after doing whatever it is that we were doing saying, “Wow, I really didn’t want to go to that, but it was fun.” I hoped this attitude would carry us through our journey of TTCing. Since he was unsure about the whole baby thing in the beginning, I figured that’s good luck. We always would joke about him not looking forward to things actually makes those things more fun. Well, it didn’t quite work in this case. The months just started dragging. Now we’re getting closer to our two-years of trying anniversary. We’re also not much closer to our goal of saving money. Things just keep coming up. So what do we do? I honestly have no idea. I think my friends have noticed that I’ve been a little quieter about our trying tribulations and been a little down. At least two or three times a week they tell me a story about a couple they know that tried for a long time and then suddenly they got pregnant. Some had already adopted or were saving up for IVF or something like that, and then it just happened. I know that can happen, but I’m not putting all my money in that pot for us. The it’ll just happen hasn’t happened in almost two years. That’s why after the holidays are over, we’ll be really looking at our budget and tightening our purse strings. I know I said that I was going to try to curb the Debbie Downer posts, and I didn’t set out for this post to be all negative. It’s really not. It’s more of a melancholy mood. I love that word by the way, always have. I try to sneak it into conversation when I can. I will say this. It's the Hubs birthday, and it happens to fall right before the big O….so who knows. Maybe the stars will align for us. If not, we’ll just keep pushing forward. This uncalled timeout is over! Comments (2)
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... Oh dear, there must be something in the air. I wrote on my personal blog about similar feelings. Unfortunately, I think my feelings are spilling into the rest of my life (my birthday on Friday is not helping matters any...). Keep your chin up-and keep posting no matter what. I really identify with your writings. |
Jen @ After The Alter
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... My husband and I have decided to "take a break" too...try to enjoy the holidays with eachother and if "the right time" falls on your husbands birthday then that sounds just great...It sounds like you deserve a Christmas Miricle. I hope there is one in store for you! |
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